Sunday, June 30

Last day on June, 2013.

There's nothing sweeter than looking your favorite guy with his sweetness to kiddo!

Gravity by Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

[CHORUS:]
Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

[CHORUS]

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.
You're keeping me down, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
You're on to me, on to me, and all over...
Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.

Monday, June 24

monday, 24th june 2013

time cures everything, it takes years or months but for me it takes forever. him and i aren't the same people anymore. we've changed so much or even too much so i decide not to take it seriously but it still hurts. he may hates me now, although i don't have any idea what i'd done before. he leaves me with no words, he grows and he doesn't know me as i am.

i'm still gonna miss you. i don't know what the best word to explain these.

Monday, June 17

Random. 17 Juni 2013

satu langkah lagi untuk menjadi siswa kelas 12 di sekolah. bukan norak atau apa, tapi do you feel the same thing with me? tiga tahun adalah waktu yang lama, tapi kalau kita menikmatinya ya three years = three seconds. baru saja lolos ke SMA yang diinginkan (at first, memang bukan SMA yang diinginkan tapi lama kelamaan i really love my high school life as well), jadi junior yang teraniaya di SMA, hahaha, dan tiba-tiba sekarang akan menjadi yang paling tua di SMA. how does that feel?

i just realized i grow older, older, and older.. day by day. tapi saya tidak menyadari akan hal itu. setiap hari, saya terlalu sibuk mengurusi dunia sekolah yang so far so fun, dan tidak menyadari ternyata saya juga tumbuh, hari demi hari. even i still memorize my elementary life like it just happened yesterday, tapi itu sudah bertahun-tahun yang lalu... saya masih merasa seperti anak kecil.

kalau dipikir-pikir, tahun ini saya akan naik kelas tiga, kemudian tahun berikutnya akan sibuk mencari kuliah. what? kuliah? college? kuliah? college? damnnnn why so fast! saya bahkan belum tahu akan melanjutkan ke fakultas apa. masih bingung menentukan bakat apa sih yang saya miliki, karena yang saya sadari adalah saya hanya bisa membuat kamar berantakan. damn damn damn 1000x.

saya masih ingin mengenakan seragam. told you, sebenci apapun kita terhadap dunia sekolah tapi sekolah adalah hal yang paling menyenangkan di dunia. selalu seperti itu, masuk sekolah dengan malas-malasan, lalu tiba-tiba sudah lulus dan esok harinya pasti kangen mau masuk sekolah. hahaha, dasar manusia.

hari ini kenapa gak jelas banget nulis di blog ini ya. -_-